difficult topic to discuss: trust

i've lost the sense of loyalty since getting hurt by many people, i always wonder if it is me who is wrong or those people actually the ones that make my trust fade away so easily. but now i've just realized that there's nothing wrong with my loyalty, i just.. choose to live with someone that i really trust in a healthy relationship. i always trust people when i'm in a relationship, i'm the one who gives a couple of chances to make the broken things strong again, i even that one person who apologize when i am the one who's getting hurt, i never badmouthing my best friend behind their back just to relieving my emotion--i do it exclusively with them and i always say sorry after that, i will cry one hour straight if they tell me how hard their life is and i will hate the life for it, i will run immediately to them if they say they need me, i will spend my midnight hour with my sleepy eyes just to hear them crying, i just want to be always with them when they need me, that's just because when i love people, i really do--God, i even want to have myself as my life partner because i know how much i treasure the one that i love. i adore them, i take care of them, i give a lot of my time and affection to them. but i now know that not everyone deserves this kind of treatment, because i just--i've used love sincerely while some people take it for granted (and unfortunately, if they do it to me, that's a shortcut to broke the relationship with me---the one who will really love them wholeheartedly) so maybe u'll see people come and go in my life but when i love someone, u can't doubt my loyalty, i basically make a huge effort to make them stay, because u see, i live my life with love, i trust love.